i could say something stupid yet true…like chocolate…or shopping, but hella nah i aint doing that. movies. i could totally sit around all day and watch good movies. a pleasure..yes…guilty? for me, yes. i isolate myself from everything. i stay in for so long it makes me feel guilty. there you go.
Day 01- Guilty pleasure Day 02- Something that inspires you Day 03- The five songs you would have with you on a desert island and why Day 04- What you imagine paradise to be like Day 05- A thank you letter to someone who has changed your life Day 06- Earliest thing you can remember Day 07- Favorite cover of your favorite song Day 08- Someone you think would make a good president Day 09- Five things you want to see change Day 10- A dream you had this past week described in detail Day 11- Favorite picture ever taken of yourself Day 12- Your favorite musical artist’s life story Day 13- A memory that never fails to make you laugh Day 14- Best mashup you’ve ever heard Day 15- A moment, phrase, or song that has changed your life the most. Day 16- Something that you want to do within the next five years. Day 17- What you want to remembered for. Day 18- A picture that makes you feel Day 19- A passage from a book that has touched you Day 20- A band that you immediately liked and the song that made you like them Day 21- Your favorite medium of art. Day 22- Someone you would give your life up for without question. Day 23- Most awkward first impression you feel you’ve ever given Day 24- Something you did as a child that other people remember you for. Day 25- Something you would do if no one stopped you or if you knew you wouldn’t fail. Day 26- Your definition of love. Day 27- Your definition of the meaning of life. Day 28- A moment you remember being completely happy in and a description of why you believe you were. What is your definition of happiness? Day 29- What you live for. Day 30- Ways you believe you have grown over the past thirty days.
“The truth is painful, deep down nobody wants to hear it especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth, because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to really hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can’t help ourselves. Sometimes we tell them because we owe them atleast that much.”—no idea, but it’s pretty awesome.
so wtf. i am in my dorm listening to my brand new classic i-pod :D, but i dont feel it yet. i still miss things, people, smells, feelings that i once experienced in winston salem. i am not miserable. my suite mates are cool and stuff but what now? i have to grow up? i hate that because i am a child at heart, i just hope i never lose that by becoming a stuffy old person.
today i have mixed feelings. i dont want to go. i dont want to grow up. i love being a stupid irresponsible teenager. have you ever realized how easy things are? we don’t have to do anything really, just think about what is yet to come.
i don’t want to let go of people. i have friends that i know i will lose, maybe they don’t mind but i do. i can’t stand this weird feeling.
i don’t want to leave the people i won’t let go of. i want to spend evvery day with them, fuckin shit, eating chicky and dealing with every other kind of icky we can think of.
i want to get on with my life at the same time. not know what is out there scares me so i want to go alreadyyyyy and deal with what will happen in my life. i want to meet people. i want to fall in love. i want so much, i’m scared i won’t get it. i don’t want to fail. i want to change the world somehow, make my mark you know? i can’t just sit back and be another person in the world. no way. i have too many ideas bouncing around in my head for that. i need something that will make my brain work but at the same time be enjoyable. jeeeeeeze life is confusing.
I bought my plane ticket today. I bought my plane ticket today. I bought my plane ticket today. If i repeat it some more will that make it seem real? I’m really going. Really? Really? I didn’t think this would actually happen. All along i’ve had this feeling that of course something will happen to mess this up. Of course I won’t actually be moving to france. But really. I am?
i am so proud of you, you don’t even understand. i know i have only known you for like 2 years, but you have really grown in my eyes. you have come out of your shell and i am so excited for you. you will probs miss home a lot and other stuff, but you will have an amazing time. i know it is hard making new friends espescially somewhere where they don’t speak your first language, but i know you can get past that. stay in touch emily, and good luck.
“Your fashion sense screams that you’re a personality that can’t be contained. You are wild in the sense that no one can ever capture your essence in a word, in a sentence, in a lifetime. You are not flawless…you’re better than that. You’re real. Go get em, tiger.”—Sandra Hwang